Yes I Am Alive and Please and Thank You

1. Meet a friend who gives you three German names (Max Weber / Karl Marx / Emile Durkheim) and add it to your list of People to know or forget or crawl on or suck on like a lozenge. Brain lozenge. And/or.
2. I want to be honest, but I am scared you will think I am Wrong.
3. Take note of what The Schedule means to you: The whip of 2018, the bones of 2018, the foundation of 2018, the energetic worms of 2018, the life raft. But is there a need for the life raft anymore when I see my Galleon on the horizon? I am swimming to you. 
4. Answer questions in the voice you never knew you had, tell stories in a voice you don't think about
5. There are a million stories to tell, he said. Let go of the old ones. What's the story, Anne Bogart?
6. Swim and don't be afraid.
7. Show and tell your eraser collection with as much joy as you did when you were a little girl.
8. Where are you in the 7-year cycle of energetic worm degredation? The worms are calling out for more.
9. This was made for you.
10. Sit in your chair, remember the rain, the sky is so heavy these days, crisp with snow.
11. Make room for your cat in your lap.
12. Walk amongst witches and heathens and artists and mystics and gurus and saints and devils and demons and dybbuks and slap their booties as you pass them by, with a wink, all of this sex magick stuff is well and good until somebody OD's on coke, and I can only laugh for a bit, everything makes me laugh because I don't understand it, is it anger or sadness?  Humor or hubris?
13. Dreamt you were a preacher and I was proud of you, speaking in front of the crowd. Nobody cheered for me, they cheered for you. I was proud proud proud to be so quiet. I had never felt so whole and humble.
14. Trust your words, yes?
15. I don't think they are either or, they are slipping through a dragon's eye.
16. The project of your mouth. Your small chin and the smudge growing around your teeth. The way you look at me, with your dragon eyes and whiskers. The smudge growing around your eyes. The age growing in your stride.
17. This is for You. I don't see it but you do, I don't see me but you do. I want to see me.
18. No more bathwater, but keep the baby. Keep the baby.
19. Yum yum vs Penis
20. I want to be Wrong.
21. Make the most of what they got. Games. Play therapy.
22. Sit. Smile. Breathe.
23. Some crystalline structure has grown here, unnoticed. Something fragile.
24. Firmly in the Flow and the Universe says YESSSS YESSSSS YESSSSSSSSSSSS you are alive you are alive you are alive and it cries and I cry and we cry together and she says thank you and I say thank you and sit and sit and sit and smile and smile and smile and today's intention is
25. Look for messages
26. The truck spraying water, or gas. Truck juice.
27. I am at ease and I can, and today I put things together
28. Watch the neighbor read his giant bible. Invite him for dinner?
29. Reaching out with your heart tendrils full of love, wanting to declare love to the girl with a flat face and flat voice as she gets on her bike, it's her hat really
30. Moldy hats outside. Can you wash moldy hats? Don't be a waste of a hat.
31. Pick up every piece of trash you see because you never know which piece of trash in the grass by the retirement home will be a photograph of the sea, you never know which piece of discarded trash will be a picture of you from the future, you never know which piece of trash you pick up will be the phone number of your Truest love, your Truest Mirror, you never know what may or may not effect a dolphin's choice to leave his pod. Fission-fusion society. They join and leave several pods over a lifetime.